Sitting with…Me — foreverkins

Jan 4

Jan 4 Sitting with…Me

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New Year. Same old me. Seems I start every year with the goal to focus more on what makes me happy, finally chase those professional goals I’ve been hoarding away, and reflecting on my own self-determined “shortcomings.” Not pretending this year is any different…I’ve already written out my goals, or resolutions if you will, for 2022, and it’s much the same. Growth. Patience. Focus. Less is more, damn it. And this is where I pause, put my freaking positive pants back on, and tell myself I can do this. This WILL be the year I finish feeling fulfilled, not overwhelmed.

I wrote the next few words back in June on a rare occasion where I found myself…alone. I don’t often get big chunks of time to myself. And often, when I do, life throws a curveball and the stillness evaporates like morning mist. Even so, the words are true. And an anthem, perhaps, to keep trying to get back to me. Whoever she is.

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Getting back to me. Time away from my family is always hard, but it does give me time to refocus on what makes me happy, what makes me feel whole. It’s easier to make better choices with my eating. It’s easier to prioritize my workouts. My mind has an opportunity to sit still with my thoughts. I start to ask myself what I’m really interested in, what I really want to give my (limited) time to.

Creatively, I write more. Or maybe at all. I take more photos. I dream almost nonstop of all the things I hope to achieve in the years I have left on this earth. Everything feels so much more attainable. Goals feel achievable. I can literally feel my confidence in my abilities, in what makes me special, so much more tangibly when I have even just a little time to sit with myself.

Admittedly, I feel like I’m always falling behind the power curve. I happened to notice that I had written down a few goals for 2021 (not resolutions) when I opened up this note to type out this blog post. Sadly, I realized I haven’t made much progress towards achieving the majority of those goals. But there’s still time...just need to make more detailed plans, keep it somewhere in plain sight, and set myself reminders and notes about those goals and WHY I made them in the first place.